That's what I feel like recently... Like I am going off the Deep End! Yesterday I took my 2 year old son for a walk down by this little river type thing. I enjoyed the walk for the first 5 or so minutes then the time came when we were getting closer to the water. I don't know what it is about water, maybe its the fact that I can't swim that great, I can doggie paddle but when it comes to saving someones life I am sure that would not save anyone. Or the fact that when I was a little girl some of my parents friends took me out in the middle of this river/lake not sure what it was in one of those Styrofoam boats and it was dark and I about had a heart attack. Either way I do not like the lake, the ocean, the river, pond etc. Pools are "ok" but I don't really like them much either. So back to my story. When I am walking with him this is what I picture. We get to close to the edge Rhylee falls in, he has his shoes, pants, sweater and big jacket on, he is 2 can not swim and I would assume automatically sink. The water is DARK, dirty and deep. What if he fell in I jumped in and he was under the water and I could not find him, by the time I did he could no longer be revived, or if he was revived the nasty water infected his lungs..it happens. I would have no control of the situation. It scares me so bad. That is why I choose to just not go to those places. I would NEVER consider bringing both kids because I would lose my mind trying to keep them away from the edge of the sidewalk. It has put a damper on a lot of outings though. Example me and Mike take them to the duck pond and I am literally almost having a panic attack and you can tell Mike is a little flustered because if either one of them gets a little to close to the water I freak out. If I never went to the water again it wouldn't bother me but I don't want my kids to be freaked out like me. I also don't want my kids to end up drowning which is one of my biggest fears.
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As you can see the water is not close, but to close for comfort for me.
